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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

IT'S A THING CALLED LOVE..... 

I am no expert on anything, let alone a topic like “love”…..but I have loved deeply with great abandon and been loved back the same way. That makes anyone realize how special it is. It doesn’t “just happen” and it isn’t something you can make happen. There is a strange chemistry at work between two people that explodes your brain and hits your heart like a Mack Truck…….or in Rocky’s case, a Freightliner.

Some people deal with love like cough syrup. They spoon out a dose at a time, kind of syrupy and pop the cap back on. Don’t want to run out…don’t have too much to pass around. We all know people who “love” when it’s profitable or for their best interest….they’re like a faucet. It’s turned on and off by command. Some love like a bottle of ketchup ……the Heinz 57 variety. They pour out all over everything and leave a lot of stains behind.

Love, the way I see it, is an ever growing thing. An inspired thing. When Rocky’s daughter, Holly, Becky and I were caring for Rocky in his last days, the three of us became a sisterhood. Three strong women who were working in tandem to make Rocky as comfortable as we could. A loving wife, his loving daughter and my loving daughter. We became as one to see him through to the other side. It wasn’t easy, we weren’t insulated from the pain of losing him….but God took us through the tough part.

I’ve never heard anyone say they were loved “too much.” In a family like ours, Rocky had two other marriages as did I. That’s a lot of baggage to bring to a third marriage but we were convinced our families would love us as we loved each other…..and they did. Love is never afraid of the outcome. Love guarantees the outcome.

When we gathered to pay our last respects to Rocky some of our kids met for the first time. What a meeting it was. His kids and mine putting their talents together to honor Rocky and his life, trading stories and working side by side to make it happen. Team effort with a common goal.

The more you love, the more love you have to give. I don’t know how or why but it works that way. Everything in the “now” will pass away but love will lead and follow us to our final destination. It’s the one thing we won’t leave behind and it’s the best thing to do while we’re here.

Love is God shining through us………..

Until tomorrow, I am,
Essentially Esther